the leader of the group that i am reasonably sure was responsible for the ritual sadistic abuse i endured has contacted me three different ways in the past 7 days. i am terrified they will come after my children.
PLEASE PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Long Time No Post!
ok so i've been distracted lately. i hadnt realized it'd been quite so long since i posted last. so here's a quick update:
chest pains turned out to be caused by very high blood pressure which has now been remedied by doctors playing with my med dosages and such until they were happy. My heart was tested and has been deemed strong and healthy.
i became a part of a new support group and it's helping me tremendously. of course, with the breakthru came new info about what i'm struggling with. I've been diagnosed as DDNOS bordering on DID. for those of you who dont' know - that's dissociative disorder not otherwise specified (in plain english - i cope thru disconnecting my mind from my body sometimes) bordering on dissociative identity disorder (more commonly known as MPD - Multiple personality disorder). i have personalities inside that sometimes take the reigns for me when i cant deal with things by myself. they just arent totally different from me enough that i lose consciousness often enough to call it officially DID.
i know it sounds complicated and scary. if you are thinking, "she's nuts this is a sybil scenario!", think again. it's not as dramatic as it sounds and even my husband is unaware of the switching because it is so subtle. this is my first attempt at sharing the Dx with people outside of my husband and best friends. i'm sharing it here because i know i have people that support me no matter what here.
anyway, that's been a huge learning curve for me, but my therapist and my other DID friends are helping make it easier.
i'll try to update more often from now on.
Merry Christmas everyone!
chest pains turned out to be caused by very high blood pressure which has now been remedied by doctors playing with my med dosages and such until they were happy. My heart was tested and has been deemed strong and healthy.
i became a part of a new support group and it's helping me tremendously. of course, with the breakthru came new info about what i'm struggling with. I've been diagnosed as DDNOS bordering on DID. for those of you who dont' know - that's dissociative disorder not otherwise specified (in plain english - i cope thru disconnecting my mind from my body sometimes) bordering on dissociative identity disorder (more commonly known as MPD - Multiple personality disorder). i have personalities inside that sometimes take the reigns for me when i cant deal with things by myself. they just arent totally different from me enough that i lose consciousness often enough to call it officially DID.
i know it sounds complicated and scary. if you are thinking, "she's nuts this is a sybil scenario!", think again. it's not as dramatic as it sounds and even my husband is unaware of the switching because it is so subtle. this is my first attempt at sharing the Dx with people outside of my husband and best friends. i'm sharing it here because i know i have people that support me no matter what here.
anyway, that's been a huge learning curve for me, but my therapist and my other DID friends are helping make it easier.
i'll try to update more often from now on.
Merry Christmas everyone!
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