Monday, March 9, 2009
Pray
Only have a couple of minutes to type this post because I'm late for the day even though it's not even 7 am... but just had to vent just a little. I'm so scared! Life is coming at me way too fast. All of the memories and flashbacks - the hugeness of the realizations of how bad things were for me - the whole mess that came down with my family this weekend and the fight with my mother - and then having to go to a surgeon today for consultation for exploratory surgery because this belly pain just won't quit... it's all too much! I'm scared. I'm overwhelmed. I don't know how to handle it all. I don't know how to juggle even just the logistics, much less the implications. How did life suddenly get so complicated? I'm not trying to be a whiner, I'm just realizing that running was so simple and feeling things makes thing so much more difficult... No, I'm not quitting. I remember my last post. I know it will be worth it. But today, I'm afraid. The journey is overwhelming. Do you ever wish you could just call in sick from life and take the day off?!
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Hey you - This post shows at almost 4:00 a.m. - were you up THAT early? Girl you need your sleep!
Anyway - praying for you. Keep moving forward. One step at a time. You are doing great - I know it doesn't feel that way - but you are moving in the right direction.
And yes - there are MANY days I wish I could take a sick day. However :-) Think of it this way. Every sick day you take just means another day your going to have to deal with it in the future.
Praying for you every day.
youre going to be fine. yeah i wish i could call in sick from life too. i would say read you last post but you know that already. im praying.
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