so i ended up sick when i skipped church - good thing i didnt go, i didnt realize it yet and was contagious so it was good i stayed home.

since then - had a good saturday and a terrible rest of the time including today.

found myself today a basketcase and ended up opening up and sharing things i've not shared before AT ALL... EVER... with a new friend. am praying now she doesnt end up not liking me because of the huge levels of pain and ignorance i showed.

tomorrow is wednesday and i have to work. please pray that i have some semblance of sanity and self control to do so without falling apart again.

guess that's all i can handle sharing tonight. headed to bed.

goodnight, world.