from the hospital

so i'm writing this from my hospital bed. chest pains and spiked bp landed me here yesterday. they are testing like crazy. blood every couple of hours, chest xray and halter monitor... and praise God so far every one has turned out well. this morning i have a stress test and then (i hope!!!) i'll be allowed to go home.

on the memory front, i had a HUGE breakthru. on saturday (my worst day), i took an old photo of him, nailed it to a piece of wood (oh that felt good), burned the wood (safely) four different ways (let's say all that was left was ashes, hehehe) then buried it and desecrated the grave the best i knew how. it threw me into dissociation but regardless, i managed to do SOMETHING to take my power back and reclaim the day. since then i've kinda been a walking zombie - so so soooooooooooooo exhausted - but better.

that's about all i have to share as i am waiting any minute for the person with the wheelchair to arrive to take me to my test. will post again when it's over and tell you how it went. hopefully with good news.