Saturday, June 12, 2010

nightmares

stupid nightmares. every night i have them. one of two kinds:

one - personal disasters (such as fires, floods, nazi's, etc) where i lose everything and everyone i care about and face life threatening situations.

or two - enduring abuse and rape. who, when and how differs, but the ending is always the same - can't get free no matter how hard i try and someone slimy and despicable hurts me in the most personal way possible.

last night was both. combined with yesterday's migraine. today i am shaken and sad and still sore in my head and neck.

i wish they would go away.

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