proud of myself

so i finished part one of my book which at the moment is more like a booklet but anyway - finished writing the first draft of the story portion of my book and will be putting the rough draft version into the capable hands of a couple of grammar nuts i know for editing because reading it is highly triggering for me. (plus, with the runon sentence i just typed, golly, it's obvious i need editing help...) also, am reading it to my counselor for her help dealing with making the story public as telling sets off all sorts of programming problems for me. right now am sitting up late next to my friend who i stay with when i go to counseling. she is snoring (she works weekends and is often exhausted) and i am ruminating on what all i want to do/say before i can shut the brain down for sleep myself. regardless of whatever i just wanted to note here that i am proud of myself. not only for working on the book, which is super hard but is like a declaration of independance for me from my abusers, but also for enduring the fight with hubby and the yelling that followed and coming to grips with it in just a weekend's amount of time. i am congratulating myself on only one day spent in bed rather than kicking myself for ending up in the bed again. progress! ok well, the snoring is sounding inviting. gotta go get ready for bed. gnite all.