piece of what happened to me (TW!)

TRIGGER WARNING!!! when i was like 8 my father tried to drown me. it was a game. i dont know he actually meant to try to kill me, i think it was more a game of fear and control. we were all splashing in the lake and i splashed him back good. he was mad. he threw a wet towel over my head and it pushed me under, then he held me down under it till i couldnt breathe any more - ignoring my struggling - leaving me there under the water. when he finally let me up, he was laughing... laughing! i thought i was going to die and he thought it was funny. there is a picture of me storming away from him that day in my mother's memory albums. i wish i could burn it. everyone thought it was a big joke. humiliated, wet, terrified and laughed at, i stormed off to my room to cry it out alone.