today :'(

24 years ago today my father killed himself and blamed it on me. 22 years ago today was the last rape i ever endured from him this date is also the anniversary of many other rapes and beatings endured at his hands. i am no longer his slave. this year, for the first time, i didnt spend this day hiding in my bed. but i still have a tsunami of emotion turning me every which way but up. one day i will look back on all this and snub my nose and go on with my life. God, i wish that day would come quickly.