another fight

fighting with husband again. started out as cuddling but he wanted more and i just wasnt up for that. i hate that he gets attitude when i tell him no. i NEED the space to be able to do that... especially when i've been flashing back a lot and i feel small. just drives us both crazy. but then there's this big old wall that comes up and we just end up both mad and sulky. sometimes, marriage really stinks.