therapy

so i talked to my therapist about the anger. turns out it was bigger than just the anger at the doctor. it was based in some irrational logic in my head. it doesnt make sense when i type it but somehow it follows logic in my head, but i had been getting upset at the doc and my hubby's comments (pretty much the same thing for each of them) that i should just think of something else as dismissing my concerns because they dont matter. which led to i dont matter. which led to i'm not enough. i know these thoughts are wrong. i just dont know how to stop them. but at least acknowledging that those were incorrect helped me not to feel so invalidated. ok - this probably makes no sense as my head hurts from thinking and being triggered but i just wanted to get the gist out so i can walk away and be ok. if this makes no sense, come back later and i will have had a chance (after my head stops pounding) to look this over and correct it so it does make sense). thanks for listening