A huge concept to consider...

Okay, coming here to hash out a concept a friend of mine just said to me. It makes a lot of sense but it's difficult to wrap my brain around. So I thought if I came here to blog about it, maybe it would become more clear and absorbable. It's very good.

Let me just begin by saying that this last week has been very intense as far as flashbacks and such go and more than incredibly difficult - there are not words to describe how hard it's been and how painful. If my counselor and my good friends that know better about these things didn't keep telling me otherwise, I'd say I was completely going off the deep end. It's been really bad.

Part of my difficulty has been that my counselor tells me so adamantly that the only way to overcome this stuff and get past it is NOT to fight the flashbacks - to let them come and to feel every bit of everything associated with them so it will come OUT and be done with. Makes logical sense. But NOT to fight flashbacks of the most traumatic things you can imagine?! Easier said than done.

So I was talking with a friend from the online support group that I joined and she said something that made me think. She said that I have the ability to fight back in a different way - that there is a power I hold that he never could. Of course, she had my full attention with that kind of announcement...

"Love" she said. She went on to explain that it's obvious that all the things he said about me and called me were very wrong and that it could be proved in my life now. That proof of that was in the fact that God trusted me with a family and children and friends and a church and a calling and so much more. That God's love and the love of those around me could be used as proof to defeat all of my father's lies and to restore my heart.

I'm still not entirely sure how that will help me through the flashbacks and such in a practical way, but I sure do like the concept. So I'm just getting it down here so that:
1 - I can reinforce the concept in my head.
and
2 - So I don't forget.

I have a feeling that if I can really wrap my head around this one, that we're in for some MAJOR progress...