How could anyone understand?
I don't even get it.
How do I expect anyone to believe me?
I don't want to believe it myself.
How does something like this happen?
How do you pick up the pieces?
How do I recover? How is that possible?
They tell me that I will heal.
That this can be overcome.
I don't see how.
The pain is so intense.
The rejection still defines me.
I am defiled. I can't get clean.
Logic doesn't help.
I know all the "right" answers.
But when it all slows down
And I'm all by myself
I am so alone.
It all floods in.
reminding me of how
hopeless it all is.
And no one understands.
And I'm right back where I started.
The progress I so long to see has got to happen.
God promises it.
I just can't wait until it also applies
when I'm all alone.
1 comment:
Haven't been praying lately. Going through my own problems and just stopped. I will begin again. Your pain makes mine seem minuscule. I have learned no matter how bad or impossible you think it is, God's plan is still at work and you will see the end. In those alone times, we both need to trust Him and believe beyond the circumstances, feelings, and pain. The more you trust the more tolerating you become.
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