Getting another breath of hope today. Got the courage to share a little of my story with a friend from college who's been helping to pray me through. He didn't freak out or hate me. And he hasn't lost hope that this is overcomeable, even after knowing a little more about how bad it's gotten. So far not one person I've told has behaved how I expected. Maybe this IS going to be okay... maybe I'm not as much of a freak as I feel like... maybe.
He suggested I take up kickboxing as an outlet for all this emotion and also to help me feel more safe with a little bit of self defense stuff under my belt... Considering looking into that.
But for tonight, I'm exhausted. It's been quite a ride this week. As long as I have a break to breathe, I'm going to get some rest! Got a lot to think about - several people have offered thought provoking comments in the last couple of days so I believe I'll take the evening to think and then hopefully actually sleep tonight... wouldn't that be nice!
Alright, signing off. Thank you all for the prayers - don't stop!
Thank you, you helped me realize more of my story, and that I did train myself to bounce back.
ReplyDeletestill praying, hope u get an answer.
ReplyDeleteLOVE kickboxing :-) In fact - I have considered many times actually taking karate - I'm just both chicken and cheap! It's SOOO expensive. And part of me wonders what would happen to the poor unsuspecting soul that might received all that unleashed stuff!! Anyway - I think kickboxing is a great thing. There is Billy Banks who has the believers workout - it's a home dvd thing and I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! You could probably pick it up on amazon.com. If you can't find it, let me know.
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