so i've decided to make this september better than in years past. it's always a hard month for me - is the same month my father chose to do most of the abuse, to try to get rid of me, and to end his own life. is very triggering to say the least.
so - i've made two lists - one of reasons to keep going and keep working on healing and the other of healthy coping skills to do instead of unhealthy ones. i've removed all of my self injury tools from the house and had a friend throw them away for me so i can go after them. and i've set me up a network of real people to talk to 24/7 if i have need as well.
am feeling very prepared and ready to tackle the first task of therapy homework. containing the pain in my father's memory in a concrete way.
just finding and printing and old pic has been difficult but i want to heal so badly... besides next step is to hammer as many nails as i like into his picture... and then hotglue him inside an airtight container and bring him to therapy to leave him there.
well, i guess that's a good update for now. i've got to go.
thanks for reading, y'all - your support means the world to me.
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Thank you for reminding me the 9th month is the hardest for you. I had forgotten. I will make a special effort to pray for you this week. Email me your phone number, if you can recieve texts and I will try to remember to send you a short text when I pray for you just so you will know someone is praying.
Love ya as much as ever... DaNella
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