When's it gonna end?

I know, I know, I should be posting more about my hospital breakthroughs, just stuck in a really bad cycle - especially today.

Being ambushed by the bad memories. New stuff popping up - details that I never wanted to hear. stuff I'd rather not remember.

I'm so overwhelmed. exhausted. wishing it would finally end. I don't know how much more of this I can handle...

God, please? Mercy! Uncle! Please?! Make it stop! Please oh please oh please - how much do I have to take before it can be over? Please, I need another Sabbath - I've gotta get some rest or I really will go crazy...Help me!